You don't have to apologize for having a friend, boss. That's not ... you made the call in the moment, and you got to do that.
[A pause, and she considers yet again just leaving it. It would definitely be easier. But she genuinely likes Tony, even if they're not as close as they might be. And so:]
It's not the thing I was worried it was, and I'm glad it wasn't. But a guy like you has to know that someone like me has reasons for wondering if people read me as soft. It's nice when I'm wrong, but there's been a lot of times I haven't been. Here and back home both.
[ as a by the by. He's different (read: pettier). ]
But trust me when I tell you that I get being underestimated and I'm not a big fan of that either.
[ It's not a fresh source of pain that Tony offers this empathy; if he badly wanted to be taken more seriously by certain Thedosians, he could make the necessary alterations rather than being obnoxiously and constantly himself.
Still. ]
We got out of it alive. And I think it happened out that way because we were all willing to do what had to be done to get the information we got. I'm not gonna forget that it wasn't just Ellis.
[She has noticed that Tony doesn't care for being wrong. It would probably be more obnoxious if he was wrong more often, but that's a thought for another day. Instead, she pauses to take this in. It's quieter when she says:]
I don't know if you know from the files or whatever, but three months after I got here the first time, I was on a field mission that went wrong. We got captured by Venatori. It's not ... I wouldn't have needed any convincing to help, I'd have always done my best to fight the megalomaniac trying to forcibly take over the world. But I've had skin in the game for a long time.
[She exhales, absently twisting one of her rings as she settles on what to say.]
I think all four of us are more good to Riftwatch alive, and I think I'll probably go on thinking that. But I know that it could come to a bigger sacrifice, sometime. I'm fucking scared to die, but if it's that or let a bunch of Nazi-esque wizards led by a zombie with delusions of grandeur take over the world, I can do that math.
no subject
[A pause, and she considers yet again just leaving it. It would definitely be easier. But she genuinely likes Tony, even if they're not as close as they might be. And so:]
It's not the thing I was worried it was, and I'm glad it wasn't. But a guy like you has to know that someone like me has reasons for wondering if people read me as soft. It's nice when I'm wrong, but there's been a lot of times I haven't been. Here and back home both.
definitely thought i'd tagged this, mea culpa
[ as a by the by. He's different (read: pettier). ]
But trust me when I tell you that I get being underestimated and I'm not a big fan of that either.
[ It's not a fresh source of pain that Tony offers this empathy; if he badly wanted to be taken more seriously by certain Thedosians, he could make the necessary alterations rather than being obnoxiously and constantly himself.
Still. ]
We got out of it alive. And I think it happened out that way because we were all willing to do what had to be done to get the information we got. I'm not gonna forget that it wasn't just Ellis.
you're all good
I don't know if you know from the files or whatever, but three months after I got here the first time, I was on a field mission that went wrong. We got captured by Venatori. It's not ... I wouldn't have needed any convincing to help, I'd have always done my best to fight the megalomaniac trying to forcibly take over the world. But I've had skin in the game for a long time.
[She exhales, absently twisting one of her rings as she settles on what to say.]
I think all four of us are more good to Riftwatch alive, and I think I'll probably go on thinking that. But I know that it could come to a bigger sacrifice, sometime. I'm fucking scared to die, but if it's that or let a bunch of Nazi-esque wizards led by a zombie with delusions of grandeur take over the world, I can do that math.